right now I am feeling sadness. I don't know how I feel 100%, but I do know that I can identify some of these feelings as sad, alone, stuck, hopeless, and negative just to name a few. I am caring about what people think way to much and am caring about the outward appearance rather than what makes ME feel better. My health isn't up to par either. I mean, I am perfectly healthy, but my back is bad, I am getting heartburn much more than usual, my bowels aren't functioning as normal, and I am continuously sore and tired.
What I think happened is I spoiled myself in the sense of buying to many things that I want right away, and not being patient and waiting for the things I work for, instead I just get them and keep them and look for something else new and better. I feel like I am not good enough and that I am just on a ride. I need to get back into church and really need to get right with God. I feel like Im hiding things that dont need to be hidden, and scared of things i never need to be scared of.