On the Upside

Today was much better than the previous. Since I have something to look forward to today (work), my attitude has changed tremendously  It really makes a difference when you have a purpose and are active instead of sitting on the couch trying to figure out what you should do with your life. I think you should just DO life instead of trying to grasp what you should do. First, have a basic knowledge of what you like and want to do, make sure there is room to grow, then work your hardest at doing what you need to do to show your boss and team members that you are a head above the rest and that you go the extra mile, instead of wanting to leave work early and catch your late night show you HAVE TO WATCH! Tv is a waste of time anyways, and if you have a DVR then you have nothing to gripe about.

All I want to do is be happy, love God, love people, and be a great influence to the people around me. Happiness comes with all of these things since they are all relevant. So if I  keep it up, I can conquer anything! The possibilities are endless for anyone out there that isn't sure what you want to do with your life. I say get a basic idea and work off of it, and do what is in your limits. Don't overload yourself to a point where you are hating what you used to like, because then all the enjoyment will be gone! You have to start somewhere, so might as well start at a point where it isn't hard to complete the tasks set forth, and it is isn't entirely easy because we all need a challenge in life, cause what is the fun in life if there is no challenges!?

There is good things to come in everyones life, no matter what your circumstances are! I know my life hasn't been all peaches and gravy, but I know God's got my back, and he is always here when I need Him.

Where do I belong?

Well friends, I have come to a crossroads. I just moved to Arizona, and yes, the landscape is beautiful, and the weather is always sunny. I just am so lonely and depressed because I have no one to talk to or interact with. I try to get involved in the church I am going to, but the only drawback is they have around 10,000 members. It is so hard to get involved in a church when all the needs of serving have been pretty much all been met. The church says that everyone can be used to serve, but I think they are saying that just to be nice, and make everyone feel like they need to get involved. I know God has great plans for me, but I don't know where He is leading me yet. It seems that when ever I get to a new "home" or place, I feel very depressed and lonely after a month or so. I don't know if this feeling is normal or if I just belong somewhere else. I just really enjoy being surrounded by people that love me, and care about my well being while also being surrounded by a beautiful landscape that I can use and enjoy and also appreciate.

Right now in my life, I feel like a wandering child in a supermarket, looking for his mother. While content and satisfied that I am on my own, I still want to return to where I belong. The cost of living in Arizona is extremely greater than it is in the Midwest. Plus, I love the cold and snow, weird to say, but yes I love the extreme changes, since my whole life has been accustomed to rapid change.

Never-the-less, it seems that I can never stay put. I was just getting use to my roots as an Iowan, then got lead away from it, thinking that a better and brighter future lay ahead. I still would like to believe that, but when you don't have anyone to talk to, converse with, or even share your stories and emotions with, you tend to get really lonely and depressed like I am feeling right now. I am sure when I start work tomorrow everything will change, but as of lately, I have just been wanting to return to the place I am used to and accustomed too instead of trying to make up a new repertoire of friends, and discover new places to eat, drink, and chill.

If you have any advise for me, I am all ears. Please send prayers my way, because I am really struggling to find out who I am, and what I need to do in this life.