As some of you know I am making another move in my life, and that is to journey down to Arizona to be with my ma, pa, puppy, and little brother. It is kind of like I am starting over again, and I think this will be a good transition for me. I have been living a negative life here in Waterloo for the past 3 years, and have recently changed my outlook and perspective around. No more partying, smoking, and wild behavior. It's time to grow up.
With this change, I am going to be going to Gilbert COmmunity college to get some sort of degree under my belt so I can make a stable living for myself. Of course I am a little nervous about moving since I have recently been getting plugged into my church and have been making some great new friends and mentors. I will not lose these people by any means, but I will miss them and their great advice and support for me. I am really trusting God, that he will provide a great church body for me to get plugged into and to grow more in Him and to be a better person all around, since with GOD all things are acheivable.
My family has been pushing me a little to go down there to receive better care for my bipolar disorder, which I have just been diagnosed with. This disorder has really thrown me for a loop emotionally, physically, and mentally. I know with proper medical care, and with the Lord Jesus by my side I can cope with this and be a stronger person because of it. I just really need prayers and love sent my way.
Also what I think God has set upon my heart is being closer to the mountains. The mountains, trees, and wildlife seems to make me appreciate the work of God more and to love what he has set in front of me while also praising Him for it. I absolutely can't express to you how much of a joyous feeling I get when I get to see the sun set over the red mountains of Arizona. It is indescribable I feel like screaming praises out to Him for the wonderful creations He has put in front of us that so many people overlook in their everyday lives.
Yes, I am hesitate, yes I am nervous, but I will have the loves of my life right there beside me pushing me and encouraging me every step of the way. I love any one person who reads this, and I pray you stay safe in this Iowa weather this winter. It is treacherous.
MUCH LOVE
sampaul
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Suitcases and Drums
Playing a gig at the HUB tonight. I am supposed to be playing percussion, but I decided to bring a suitcase, snare, and straight cymbal stand. With these I will create pure awesomeness. I will let you know the outcome, which will probably be mediocre.
LATERZ
Monday, January 28, 2013
substance
Ok, so here is another thought,
I often take things upon myself, I always feel if I mess up or slip up, I let myself down. I also often dwell on the fact that I have messed up or could have done things more efficiently in order to make a process or task move faster.
This is not my duty to wear down my inner being with negativity which is provided by the dark side. The enemy wants me to believe that it is my fault so I will go back to my old ways of smoking, drinking, or other unneeded worldly things. These things will only temporarily help the situation, but will hurt anyone in the long run. TEMPORARY FIX "they" call it, but weed, liquor, nor drugs will ever solve or resolve your/ my problem. It will only be a sidetrack, and make your soul and emotion feel worse afterwards.
BLOGGERSPAM OUT
I often take things upon myself, I always feel if I mess up or slip up, I let myself down. I also often dwell on the fact that I have messed up or could have done things more efficiently in order to make a process or task move faster.
This is not my duty to wear down my inner being with negativity which is provided by the dark side. The enemy wants me to believe that it is my fault so I will go back to my old ways of smoking, drinking, or other unneeded worldly things. These things will only temporarily help the situation, but will hurt anyone in the long run. TEMPORARY FIX "they" call it, but weed, liquor, nor drugs will ever solve or resolve your/ my problem. It will only be a sidetrack, and make your soul and emotion feel worse afterwards.
BLOGGERSPAM OUT
be neighborly
As I stroll through my daily motions, it seems to me that many, if not all, people are unaware of how separated we all are. I like to think back to the 50's when Billy and Susie would be playing outside in their '57 Chevy pedal cars, while ma was doing the gardening and dad was fixing his old jalopy. Neighbors would stroll by and see how you were doing, ask if you wanted to come over for a get together later that night, or maybe even go to a car race later that weekend.
It seems now we despise talking or even reaching out to one another. "If you look at me the wrong way I'll beat your f**king face off," is more common than,"How do you do ma'am?" or "Would you like help carrying your belongings to your door?" It seems to me that the world and the people around us have gotten sour, rotten, and unattractive. Selfish is the best word that comes to my mind when I say hi to someone and get no response back, or hold the door for a group of people and here no sign of thanks or gratitude.
It seems that the media wants us to portray each other as criminals, sexual predators, or perverts, and to stay away from one another because who knows what the creepy old guy down the street will do if you accidentally through your ball into his yard. For all WE know he is gonna bring out his shotgun and blow us to smithareens! NOT TRUE. Half of the "creepy" old guys we have never talked to have the most amazing stories you have ever heard in your whole entire tiny, stupid, sheltered life. Granted his stories may be a little exaggerated, but what story isn't exaggerated???
I guess the moral of this explosion of thoughts and words is,
GET THE HELL OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE AND MAKE CONVERSATION.
You don't need to know a guys life story in one sitting, but you would be surprised to find out how much you can learn from a person from just talking to them for 10 minutes,
PEACE AND LOVE
-sampauleatsbearswhenhe'shungry
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Getting out of Your Little Bubble
You know, sometimes direction in life is not only found by you and your knowledge, but by building off of what other more "knowledgable" people have told you throughout your life. The reason I may seem knowledgable, is because I have worked and learned off of what other older, wiser people have taught me, which in turn, gives me the leeway to share that knowledge with other people.
Kids, teenagers, and students nowadays seem like they lack the common sense and necessities they need in life, let alone survive. It seems that people and kids are living just to "live" nowadays cause they have no hope for the future, because "who knows what the future may hold, so why not just party and have a good time and waste away the life God has given us to go out and make neat, interesting new friends?"
*In all honesty, who really cares about other people in the first place*. It seems that we/ us Americans live such sheltered lives, that we will never get to meet these amazing people before they die off and the knowledge and livelihood of these people are gone forever. Well, yeah the internet is here to help, but it certainly doesn't provide us with EVERYTHING we need!
Just let me give you a couple examples of people that I have met over the past years that have helped me obtain knowledge that I could have never learned from a book.
STEVE SCHULTZ: A man who raced the Indi 500, on an old Yamaha 2 stroke (rd400/350 can't remember right). The only reason he won it is because for one he split the cylinder heads in two separate pieces so it would reduce the vibration of the 2 pistons that we set side by side, and another is that he was one crazy bastard and kept the throttle pinned and had the skill and the knowledge to know when to break, accelerate, and let off the throttle at the right moment.
ED KUNATH: Ed, is one of the my friends I look up to the most, besides my father. I am pretty sure he obtains too much information for his own good, but that is why I favor him so much. Anytime I need to ask him a question about anything, he will either, know the answer, tell me who knows the answer, or find the answer by digging into the problem at hand. Ed has to be one of the most knowledgable guys I have ever met, and also one of the most witty intellectual men on this planet, and at that we share many many many of the same interests.
JON MEYERS: My dad is the best. Flat out best. No one can beat him. No one can contest with him. He is a living miracle of Gods work at hand. He has taught me all I know from when I was 0 to my present age of 21. My dad is the type of person that if he doesn't know the answer, he will sure as hell find it out, and if he can't find it out, he will fabricate something to make the problem solved. He and I share mostly all of the same interests and he has never failed to give me a bad piece of advice. He suffers everyday from excruciating pain, but seems to pull through, no matter what the issue is that day.
*I HAD TO SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST*
All in all, i just want to let you know to get the hell out of you little comfort bubbles and go talk to your neighbors. You don't know who they are until you meet them, and if they're dicks, well at least you figured that out, and you can press on to the next neighbor.
*excuse my language and my improper use of punctuation.*
GOD BLESS
Kids, teenagers, and students nowadays seem like they lack the common sense and necessities they need in life, let alone survive. It seems that people and kids are living just to "live" nowadays cause they have no hope for the future, because "who knows what the future may hold, so why not just party and have a good time and waste away the life God has given us to go out and make neat, interesting new friends?"
*In all honesty, who really cares about other people in the first place*. It seems that we/ us Americans live such sheltered lives, that we will never get to meet these amazing people before they die off and the knowledge and livelihood of these people are gone forever. Well, yeah the internet is here to help, but it certainly doesn't provide us with EVERYTHING we need!
Just let me give you a couple examples of people that I have met over the past years that have helped me obtain knowledge that I could have never learned from a book.
STEVE SCHULTZ: A man who raced the Indi 500, on an old Yamaha 2 stroke (rd400/350 can't remember right). The only reason he won it is because for one he split the cylinder heads in two separate pieces so it would reduce the vibration of the 2 pistons that we set side by side, and another is that he was one crazy bastard and kept the throttle pinned and had the skill and the knowledge to know when to break, accelerate, and let off the throttle at the right moment.
ED KUNATH: Ed, is one of the my friends I look up to the most, besides my father. I am pretty sure he obtains too much information for his own good, but that is why I favor him so much. Anytime I need to ask him a question about anything, he will either, know the answer, tell me who knows the answer, or find the answer by digging into the problem at hand. Ed has to be one of the most knowledgable guys I have ever met, and also one of the most witty intellectual men on this planet, and at that we share many many many of the same interests.
JON MEYERS: My dad is the best. Flat out best. No one can beat him. No one can contest with him. He is a living miracle of Gods work at hand. He has taught me all I know from when I was 0 to my present age of 21. My dad is the type of person that if he doesn't know the answer, he will sure as hell find it out, and if he can't find it out, he will fabricate something to make the problem solved. He and I share mostly all of the same interests and he has never failed to give me a bad piece of advice. He suffers everyday from excruciating pain, but seems to pull through, no matter what the issue is that day.
*I HAD TO SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST*
All in all, i just want to let you know to get the hell out of you little comfort bubbles and go talk to your neighbors. You don't know who they are until you meet them, and if they're dicks, well at least you figured that out, and you can press on to the next neighbor.
*excuse my language and my improper use of punctuation.*
GOD BLESS
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